Yogi who loves to Eat

Let it go.

It is easier said then done. It is a matter of heart and mind. It is the battle.

The truth is that if you know how to let it go; your happiness is guaranteed. Why is it so hard to let something go when you know that once you let it go - you will be much happier?

I wonder

Travel Wish List

Might as well I come up with my travel wish list and work towards it. Here you go;

India (Aug 2012)
As a yogi, it is a must-go for me since I started my yoga journey back in 2010. Going to deepen my yoga & meditation practice, culture and scenary.
Rishikesh, Mysore, Ladakh and Goa

Sri Lanka
Heard and seen so much beautiful stuff about Sri Lanka; brilliant teas, apparently diving here is good, and of course clothes - the best clothes in the world are from here.

Italy (Mar 2013)
This has been no 1 in my list since I started work - the food, wine, carbs, florencely scenery and the whole European thing. I am not a big history smart - so I am gonna stick with food for my stomach and my eyes. I want to travel around Italy and taste all the good food from the local trattoria and of course the wine.
Rome, Florence, Cingue Terre, Napoli, Amalfi

France (Mar 2013)
Pâtissière, only one thing that attracts me to France. I love french pastries and cakes and sweets. I get the exposure mostly from my dear friend Kris. I even had a dream to study pattissiere in Le Cordon Blue in Paris. I want to travel the wine route and capture all the beautiful France. Sipping a glass of red, having warm crusty bread dipped with evoo - heavenly!
Paris, Bordeaux, Dijon, Marseille

Spain (Mar 2013)
Tapas Tapas Tapas
Andalucia

Norway
I want to be wowed by the natural landscape, the northen light, and the countryside.
Oslo

Morroco
culture and culture and morrocon mint tea of course

Japan
I want to live here if possible. The food, the culture, the language, the countryside, the hotspring, and lots of love.
Kyushu, Osaka, Hokkaido, Okinawa

Greece
A school time dream place that I want to visit - the blue and white architecture with blue sea and sunset. Romantic eh
Santorini, Zakynthos

Indonesia
my country and it is always be in me. I want to experience all the beautiful places in Indonesia and I can share with people around the world on its beauty. Of course the dive destination. I dream to retire in Bali, I do.
Yogjakarta, Bangka Belitung, Ambon

Cape Town
Africa but not the safari that I am attracted to. It's the culture, food and of course wineries. I was told it is very beautiful out there.

South America

away to pursue my passion

It took me lots lots lots of courage to finally tell myself to quit the job that I was so comfortable with. There have been so much uncertainties I am dealing with at that moment: not able to be financially responsible for my parents, what if the life I really wanted is just that boring after all and what will happen after I quit my job?

I asked myself the other day, have I really done something for myself? I went to university in order to make my parents proud, I have been financially responsible for my parents since I started working and I am glad I did it. I do wonder sometimes, why can't I just like other kids of my age (the luckier ones)? I know it is just a really silly thought as I could not asked for more: I am blessed with family and friends that care about me.
Starting of year 2010 (still on going) is probably my lowest period of my life. I am exhausted both mentally and physically and knowing that I am going to hit 30 very soon and I sit down and really ask myself this question: "girl, you have done what you want to do for others, have you really done something for yourself?"

I took the courage to pursue my passion in yoga, finally. I will be going to stay in Bali for a month to deepen my yoga practice and hopefully at the end of it I am able to share the beauty of yoga to my friends and family. I am surprised and touched on how my friends and family are very supportive towards my intention to pursue this passion. At the moment, I am having a lot of mixed feeling: nervous, anxious, excitement and doubt. I know for sure that by going away for a month just be with myself, it will open up a lot of life questions and it could end up confusing myself more. On the other hand, it could be a happy ending if I am able clear up my clustered mind. We'll see how it goes.

My friends have been asking me these questions: why are you not working at the moment? you want to teach yoga? how are you going to survive without a job? will you be OK alone in Bali? don't you enjoy your previous job, you can get back to same industry and do yoga part time?
I really do not have answer to those questions, I know they are concern about my well-being and I am  as I am just doing what my heart is telling me to do at this moment of time. One of my friend told me: there is no good or bad decision in life, there is only decision that you think at that point of time is the right one for you.

be well my friends

xox,
kualibiru

 

Gone to be nurse, be back in 3 weeks!

I am leaving to China again this coming Monday to provide whatever support I can provide to both my mum and dad. I hope things will go well with my dad's treatment. I have good feeling that my dad is better now and he can enjoy his retirement age relaxing with the family and grandchildren.
I always pray for miracle to happen. I do.

A lot of things happened to me lately - I will not make them be the showstopper of what I needed to do for my family and myself.

Passion

Is it the right time for me to pursue my passion?

questions asked recently

Are you happier in the sea?
Are you happy talking cock among people?
Are you happy just staring at the sea...by yourself? and the sea gives you a certain calmness and reassurance?

What if my answer to all questions above is a "Yes"?

Test post from email

I will be going to China soon - I couldn't access Vox there but I hope to
keep updating it whilst I am there. I wonder if doing email posting is
doable? I am thinking to create new blog with livejournal but we'll see

30th day without coffee

I have just achieved 30 days without coffee. When people asked me why do I want to give up coffee, honestly I do not know the answer.
I am not a coffee person and I have never grown up drinking coffee. I think it all started of from my uni days where all my friends are going gaga about Starbucks.
Over the past few years, drinking coffee has becoming one of my social activities. I always go for latte for my coffee fix.
I started to build the relationship with coffee, good coffee like grinders, Illy, Lavazza etc. etc. I frequent Spinelli and Pacific for coffee and often it's an excuse to have a slice of yummy sinful cheesecake and I feel their ambience is very relaxing as compare to Starbucks and Coffee Beans.
I started drinking black coffee in Japan last year and I am now a black coffee person. Yeah, my friends said it's disgusting but I found it amazing that how I can switch from milky and sweet coffee to sweet-less and milk-less coffee. My theory is, you just need to get used to it..it's that simple. Having black coffee means I feel less guilty when I have it with a slice of cake
I am not sure if it's psychological, but I do feel that I get really sleepy after lunch during working days.
When will I start drinking coffee again? I don't know, when I feel like it.
It's weird but I feel it's good to challenge yourself doing something that other people found it's not significant at all

xoxo,
kualibiru

tons of things to do

I will be super duper busy soon due the the recent decision I have made... I am overwhelmed and don't know where to start... 

another challenge

I brave myself to accept my friend's invitation to try out rock climbing on Thursday. I have been wanting to try rock climbing for ages but somehow it did not happen - probably there is not enough motivation and I don't know where to start. So, 10am sharp I was wondering around the entrance of the venue looking for direction to the walls.
I paid registration fee and they gave me the temporary card, harness and shoes. My friend which is an experienced climbers do not want to waste time further, she put the harness on me and teach me how to tighten the harness and explain the simple rule "just climb" and I was like "eh?" I did what she told me though, so the basic tools for rock climbing are: harness, shoes, chalk and the belay devices. I learned the 8 knots and how to do belaying - it's a crash course. I wouldn't take it as a proper lesson - it's my first time and I would definitely want learn the proper way

So, I did my 1st climb, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th... on the 5th climb I couldn't make it to the top as I have no more strength on my hands to hold on the the boulders. I took a long rest while observing how the others do. I then attempt the 6th climb and with quite an effort I manage to reach the top and I know that will be my last climb for the day. One of my friend that came along kindly show me how to do belaying and I did 2 belaying, I need to learn a proper way to do belaying as it involves other people's safety.

I think I had good day with my first try on climbing especially the feeling when you climb with the right momentum - it just feel great to be able to move along with the boulders to reach the top - I love the coming down part :) you just sit down relax and hands off and slowly walk down the wall until you touch the ground
Lesson learned from today:
1. do not rely too much on your hands - use more legs power... legs power...
2. look at where are your steps
3. keep a momentum to move along to the top - it's easier
4. take rest when you need it and relax

Thanks for the fun group who let me had a try on rock climbing and also took care of me very well :) I am looking forward for the next one

xoxo